this is getting worse

hai.. now i dont know anymore..='( things are getting worse.. im starting to hate november.. and oh.. now i really hate tumbler. . how could she keep such things?? are there more?? what? il just gonna find it myself?? damn it.. i dont deserve this..

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i guess things are starting to change right now.. too bad that it caught me off guard.. it really stresses me out.. too bad she could't see it and couldn't do anything about it.. or she's just trying to ignore that everything of these is happening.. im depressed now.. ='(